Saturday, June 28, 2008

Would You Be There

Would u be there~

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away? (X2)

Would you be there..

If I will wait, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there,
to kiss my pain away.. (X2)

Would you be there?
For me..

I know.. some people things I hav to "fang shou", so.. I've decided to let u go.. well.. I realy wanna be frenz wif u.. is that okay? =] Thx for making felt being loved... thx for the wonderful memories u gave me.. I really appreciate it ^^ Thx for being my fren... thx for companying me when I'm bored... thx for consoling me when I'm sad.. thx for sharing ur happiness wif me which made my days look bright... thx.. thx... thx for loving me be4...

Thursday, June 26, 2008

A Piece Of Me

If we insist too much on something,what will the effect be like? We may be cheating ourself by telling ourself that we are just not giving up hope and just wish that everything will return to the old self. We can still save this situation before it's too late. We keep on going with the no giving up spirit of us. But then,when or where is the ending point for us? When can we stop being so naive? Can we actually do anything? Why are we treated like this? When will we be free? Is this the best for us? Is there anyone better outside? Who can save us? Is it you?
I am currently starving for some missing pieces in my life. I know my life is not just going to end like this. This is just a piece of rubbish which I write while I am highly unmotivated. I don't know if I need some counseling or what but I just don't like my normal life nowadays. I am sick mentally and physically. I cannot study well because I keep on thinking of the same old thing everyday.
I am really poor in healing myself. I am not a doctor or what physics pro who can study physics like pro. God gave everyone a life to live in and we are the one who determine how we use our life. You can call me stupid because I am really not that clever. I never realize how good is God to us. I think negatively and behave pessimistically. I don't like myself and my style is not pleasing to the people surrounding me.
Although I know that I am myself while others are others,I still really mind in what people's thinking of me. My heart is weakening every now and then. I do admit that I am an old stubborn kid. I know I should be thinking more mature from now on but I am really scare of going through all of that. What will it do to me? Will I be too crazy in thinking all of that? Am I wasting my time here doing nonsense? What benefits can it bring to me?
I am a guy with a normal family who goes to church every Sunday. However,what will happen if I stop going to church? I am thinking too much nowadays. I think of my past,my current life and of course my future. I cannot sleep well. My head hurts a lot. I may get migraine suddenly. I am really unwell. The world id round. The world will never change for me. You can say that the world is cruel but the fact is that you are wrong.
We are the one who are cruel. We are cruel to ourselves. We are bad. We don't deserve to be living in such a beautiful world. What is the point in living in such a nice place when we does not know how to appreciate the whole thing. We might as well shut up and disperse from this place once and for all. We rush too much while trying to pursue something in our life.
We think that we finally make it to the conclusion. We are the winner. We have achieved the true meaning of our life. But eventually,we haven't even reach the climax yet. Once again,we are lying to ourself and the people surrounding us. We not only hurting ourselves but our friends too. Sometimes,we don't even know that we are wrong in the things that we have done.
But can this change? Is it the time for us to prove our worth in living? When is the dateline? Friends are marvelous,food are marvelous,everything is marvelous if we know how to use it well. I love all my friends but do all my friends love me? Wait,wait, I really sure when I say that I love all my friends? I actually treat some of my friends like enemy. My behavior shows it all. Not good at all. Not nice at all. Sweets are sweet while bitter gourd are bitter. This is the fact and the only fact.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Love LIfe..

I met some girls from my school. They are not from the same age. The girls are younger than me. I like those girls but does not love them. I am not sure what my true feeling. Maybe my mind is playing fun with me right now. I am very dizzy right now. I do not know which step to take after this. I am really confused right now. I want to do something but I just don't have the guts to do so. I am scared of something or maybe this is a phobia to me. So,my friends gave me some advises..

From my first friend..
Just do what you want to do. We will support you.. Say what leh? Just do it. Just don't regret after you do it,don't feel regret after that. There is no medicine for "regret". God already show you the road. So,you need to make a decision wisely. Just be yourself,Allen. All the best to you. This is life.

From my second friend..
The chance don't always come,so if you have that "chance",just do it,don't fear failure. One more month left only.Every change will surely make us lost something,if you want to go a step closer,you must be brave to change,brave to step out! Do it before you regret! So,you want to walk what way?

From my third friend..
For me..the so called "problem" for me is a phenomenon. Or,I should say it is a stage of growing. We all know that the world today has changed. There are no more so called "true love" in this modern society. It is because there is too much temptation from surrounding and the environment. Therefore,there still will has "true love" which has not extinct yet. These few people have very strong determination.Or should I say..Both.. Love is a "thing" that two different sex people make it up. So..Allen,you are so called "confused" here is actually a stage of learning. Because the harm caused by the aftermath is not serious. The thing you have to learn in order to complete your future life... So just learn... The exam of love is drawing near. I mean the "stage of your confusion". Or the things between guts and rational. Gambateh! ^^ From my point of view,loving someone or open your heart to someone for me is a life time cases. I mean it is big deal!!! I mean love=marriage..What is the point to have someone now by knowing that someday,we will finally broke up. As I said earlier,who can stand the other world's temptation without God's word. Aih..whatever la...

After looking at my friends' advices for me,I thought over and over again. I think I know what to do now. I will be myself form now onwards. Let God prepare the path for me to walk. So,if anyone have any advice for me too..please don't feel shy to do so..

My Feeling Part 2

We may think that Sibu is just a small little place but did you ever learn that actually there are more than one hundred thousand people living in this small space. We can count ourself really lucky to have been borne at this small peaceful place. So many luxuries for us to enjoy. We have a great place to study and works are easy. Although we cannot see the beautiful scenery like other towns,we are still enjoying ourselves. We know what is the best for all of us. We do the right thing at the right time. We never do things which may bring harm to ourself. We know how to think best for all of us. We are the one who determine how our life to go. We may fail sometimes but we will try our best to get up and go on running till the ending point. If there is some impossible target for us achieve,we will be satisfy with what we have done and not just depends on the results. Anyway,life is always beautiful!!

My Feeling Part 1

I live in a big big world but I am situated at a small place named Sibu. The World can be very beautiful but if we doesn't know how to appreciate it the best way we can,no matter how beautiful it is,we will never realize it. Things come and go,whether it is living things or non living things. Life is never calm for unexpected things happen here and there everyday. I may love you today but I may also hate you forever for the rest of my life after today. Not everything may benefits us but we are the one who uses the things to benefits ourselves. man are easily affected by a lot of things surrounding them. Sometimes feeling dull and sad may not be the worse thing that could happen to us. If we lost something which is most essential and important to us,by then we may feel that it is time for the world to end for us. Our life is finished. There is nothing left in this world which are worthy for us to live for. our future is gone because there can never be any future for us anymore. Something we need to survive has been taken away from us.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Hahaz..cincai write de!!

Well,people!! Is it that if the old ones don't go then the new ones will never come into the equation? Haha..i really dunno the answer e.. People have a very weird heart. Thet tend to like this and that and in the end there are a huge amount of things he like. This may bring happiness to he,himself but what is the effect brought by him to the so called huge amount of things he like? Will they be hurt? Will they be happy too? Well..the answer is no. So,can this action be stopped. Don't be too open-shoulder that u think u can share ur love with so many people. Just tell is enough. Don't be too selfish! God doesn't like it. Respect others and u will be respected too. That's all for now.

To Continue Or Not

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