Love LIfe..

I met some girls from my school. They are not from the same age. The girls are younger than me. I like those girls but does not love them. I am not sure what my true feeling. Maybe my mind is playing fun with me right now. I am very dizzy right now. I do not know which step to take after this. I am really confused right now. I want to do something but I just don't have the guts to do so. I am scared of something or maybe this is a phobia to me. So,my friends gave me some advises..

From my first friend..
Just do what you want to do. We will support you.. Say what leh? Just do it. Just don't regret after you do it,don't feel regret after that. There is no medicine for "regret". God already show you the road. So,you need to make a decision wisely. Just be yourself,Allen. All the best to you. This is life.
EVERY SUCCESS BEGINS WITH THE FIRST STEP!!

From my second friend..
The chance don't always come,so if you have that "chance",just do it,don't fear failure. One more month left only.Every change will surely make us lost something,if you want to go a step closer,you must be brave to change,brave to step out! Do it before you regret! So,you want to walk what way?

From my third friend..
For me..the so called "problem" for me is a phenomenon. Or,I should say it is a stage of growing. We all know that the world today has changed. There are no more so called "true love" in this modern society. It is because there is too much temptation from surrounding and the environment. Therefore,there still will has "true love" which has not extinct yet. These few people have very strong determination.Or should I say..Both.. Love is a "thing" that two different sex people make it up. So..Allen,you are so called "confused" here is actually a stage of learning. Because the harm caused by the aftermath is not serious. The thing you have to learn in order to complete your future life... So just learn... The exam of love is drawing near. I mean the "stage of your confusion". Or the things between guts and rational. Gambateh! ^^ From my point of view,loving someone or open your heart to someone for me is a life time cases. I mean it is big deal!!! I mean love=marriage..What is the point to have someone now by knowing that someday,we will finally broke up. As I said earlier,who can stand the other world's temptation without God's word. Aih..whatever la...

After looking at my friends' advices for me,I thought over and over again. I think I know what to do now. I will be myself form now onwards. Let God prepare the path for me to walk. So,if anyone have any advice for me too..please don't feel shy to do so..

My Feeling Part 2

We may think that Sibu is just a small little place but did you ever learn that actually there are more than one hundred thousand people living in this small space. We can count ourself really lucky to have been borne at this small peaceful place. So many luxuries for us to enjoy. We have a great place to study and works are easy. Although we cannot see the beautiful scenery like other towns,we are still enjoying ourselves. We know what is the best for all of us. We do the right thing at the right time. We never do things which may bring harm to ourself. We know how to think best for all of us. We are the one who determine how our life to go. We may fail sometimes but we will try our best to get up and go on running till the ending point. If there is some impossible target for us achieve,we will be satisfy with what we have done and not just depends on the results. Anyway,life is always beautiful!!

My Feeling Part 1

I live in a big big world but I am situated at a small place named Sibu. The World can be very beautiful but if we doesn't know how to appreciate it the best way we can,no matter how beautiful it is,we will never realize it. Things come and go,whether it is living things or non living things. Life is never calm for unexpected things happen here and there everyday. I may love you today but I may also hate you forever for the rest of my life after today. Not everything may benefits us but we are the one who uses the things to benefits ourselves. man are easily affected by a lot of things surrounding them. Sometimes feeling dull and sad may not be the worse thing that could happen to us. If we lost something which is most essential and important to us,by then we may feel that it is time for the world to end for us. Our life is finished. There is nothing left in this world which are worthy for us to live for. our future is gone because there can never be any future for us anymore. Something we need to survive has been taken away from us.

Hahaz..cincai write de!!

Well,people!! Is it that if the old ones don't go then the new ones will never come into the equation? Haha..i really dunno the answer e.. People have a very weird heart. Thet tend to like this and that and in the end there are a huge amount of things he like. This may bring happiness to he,himself but what is the effect brought by him to the so called huge amount of things he like? Will they be hurt? Will they be happy too? Well..the answer is no. So,can this action be stopped. Don't be too open-shoulder that u think u can share ur love with so many people. Just tell urself..one is enough. Don't be too selfish! God doesn't like it. Respect others and u will be respected too. That's all for now.

Uniform Camp 2008

La la la..i went to the Uniform Camp organized by the Boys' Brigade and Girls' Brigade this year from the 26th till 27th of May. The camp was really great. I have dreamed of joining this camp since a long time ago although i had manage to do so last year but that was different because back then,i was an officer for the uniform camp then. So,this can be my first time joining this camp as a participant for the Prefect Group. We got permission from our Prefects' adviser,Mr.Wong. He gave us the green light and tell us that if we want to join in the camp,we must achieve the best. So,i gather the 16 people for the prefect team. Gathering people was never easy because some might be in at one day and then out another day. Until the last day before the camp,there were still changes. But then,the good news is that we manage to form a true team of 16 members,8 zone leaders(Allen Yong,Sien Ding,Tien Yong,Sing Teck,Xuan Yuan,Andy Ko,Bernard Chieng,Jin Mei) and another 8 prefects(Tiong Kuok,Sii Chuan,Chiung Hao,Mim Mim,How Lie,Doreen,Siaw Wei,Amy Wong). We went in as a team and we walk out as a team. We achieved others don't think we can achieve. Now,we were separated into different groups. The group names are such as scooby dooby doo..haha,my team. next,we were assigned to our rooms,prefects were all put inside one room. So high..we cleaned our rooms and next we go for the ice breaking. We designed our flag and think of our slogan. Ahahaha..our slogan was Scooby Dooby Doo,where are you? We are here!!! Huh(Bark like dogs)..LOl,so noob de.. We present our flags and slogans. Next,is a little ice breaking game. The game was ok and it ended quite early like about 10.30am. After that,is the training time for tonight's cultural night. Everyone was really excited about it. We got The Hollow Man and The Hulk for the drama. The Music Video we got was When You Believe by Mariah Carey. We think and think and in the end we got our ideas. The Hulk will be me while the Hollow man will be Tien Yong..My girlfriend was Andy Ko. The MV part was mostly acted out by Sing Teck and Andy Ko(Angel). So,we practice and practice. At about 2,we stopped and went over to the games part. The games were not so fun actually but it was made more merrier by the appearance of the wolves who can steal person from one's group. We were lucky not to get caught. Haha..you can't catch us! We ran here and there shouting our slogan. Really tired but had fun with my team. O ya,forgot to mention..i was the team's leader. Why? Because i talk too much and i look like a dog. The game ended at about 5. We took our bath and then it was the last rehearsal for the cultural night. We prepared all our tools and practice a few more times. At 7,it was time for us to move over to the hall. We were the 6th group to perform. Not nervous at first but getting more and more nervous when we are nearer. In the end,it was our turn. We act out the drama first. The whole thing was really fast. Haha,the last move I made stole the limelight. i march forward to the middle and fallout there. I gave a peace to everyone and everyone laughed. The teacher was shocked and all 6 of laugh too. Next,is the MV part,we did really well too. We must really thank Andy Ko for what he has contribute to the team. He acted out the part of a girl for both drama and MV. Haha..at about 10,everything was over. We went back to prepare for our sleep. Then,it was sleeping time. The next morning,we woke up at 5 for the marching. We practice a few times and then go for our bath next. At 7,we gathered at the canteen for our breakfast. While having breakfast,our teacher(Ling Nga Hung) came over to congratulate us for doing so well last night. We achieved no.1 for the cultural night. We were the second team to march. We marched but what cannot be omitted was mistakes. Some didn't do quite well as others while some exceed their expectation. We saw other groups marching. They were really good but we must always know that we took just 3 days time to train out this batch of prefects. We should be really proud of ourselves. Now,for the closing ceremony,it was also the prize presentation time. I actually went up stage 2 times. I got no.2 in games for scooby doo team and i got the best actor prize. O ya,Andy Ko got the best actress prize. The overall champion was Red Crescent,we manage to get no.5. We should always be grateful with what God has given us. La la la..the whole camp was magnificent and how i wish i can come back again next year. But,that will be impossible because by then,we would have finished our student life. Anyway,I love Uniform Camp 2008!!

当他不再爱你的时候。。。。。。

当他不再爱你的时候，不要再给他打电话。你的一句我想你，只能换来他的沉默。比沉默更让你难过的是，他说---那有什么办法呢。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，不要再给他发e-mail， 不要再试图用文字唤起他的回忆，打动他的心，如果你的人不能打动他，那么即使你用文字感动他一回，换来片刻温存，温存过后的大片空白只能让你更加难过。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，不要再关注他的生活，不要再关心他的一举一动。他的生活就是他的生活，你的生活也只属于你。如果不需要分享，那么就独自承担悲欢。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，不要勉强自己出现在有他的场合，不需要在热闹的人群里被迫伪装你的不在乎。即使选择回避，也绝不是软弱，如果可以，选择平静的寂寞，让自己的伤口慢慢愈合。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，不要幻想你可以在他心里留下一滴泪。即使有一瞬间他被你的眼泪打动，只要他不再爱你，他被你打动的时间绝不会比你流泪的时间长。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，别去怨恨，也别去问他，也别问自己，为什么他会这么绝情，为什么他可以这么快就忘掉。甚至怀疑他根本就没有喜欢过你，而一切仿佛只是一场骗局。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，读书是转移疼痛最好的办法。不要纵容自己喝酒，抽烟。即使你再痛，也不要给自己借口放纵。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，不要让眼泪淹没了你曾经灿烂的笑容，你还是原来那个可爱的你。

　　当他不再爱你的时候，相信我，所有的一切，都有风淡云清的一天，总有一天，你看到他，就像看到一张桌子那么简单。因为从失恋中走出来的，有你，也有我 ！

Haha..so,what's the point?

I am in a deep dilemma right now..the choices given to me is so hard tat i could hardly make my decision..is my decision right or wrong depends on who or even what? I really dun know what to do.. Anyway,if u r reading this..this does only apply to you but also to anyone in the world who wanna be successful in doing something which u like.. I love this and that but sometimes this and that are really really not good enough for me..whether or not the thing is for me or not is not for me to decide..So,do i look like i dun understand or i dun wanna understand? Who can tell me if I m right or wrong? Who can judge me? Who can give me the best possible answer? Who is the one most suitable to me? Can our different background determine everything? Can the World be so cruel? Can i do anything to change this cruel fate? Am i bringing myself into another big trouble? What's wrong with this World? Or is the world really turning upside down these days? I m moving towards a hole which the deepness is unthinkable..can anyone save me? Anyone out there who has experienced the same thing?? Why...please share with me..Lol..