Thinking Too Much^-^ >.< *.* -.-!!

If I say that I am in a big trouble,deep danger of being drowned...what should I do? I may be gone suddenly. What will be my next step? My life is dull but at is brighten by my friends' presence. What if I lost my friends one day after tomorrow? What will it be like? It's so scary. I really hope that day will never come. Cause I dun want to leave all of you. Am I crazy to think of all of this? I asked these things to my friends. These were some of the opinions.

First friend:
First,you should calm down. That will require your critical thinking! You won't lost your friend if you stay connected with them. That is accident. God want it to happen. So,let it be... It's not scary, but you are afraid to face it alone! It will come some day. That is your choice. You are not crazy, you are just thinking too much.

Second friend:
Lolz... Ya... You are thinking too much. Soon, all of us will be leaving. We can't be together forever. Maybe you can find more friends when the day comes. We still can contact each others. This is life... We have to face it. So, accept this with open heart... Just let God lead the way...

Third friend:
I agree with one of your sentence,"I may be gone suddenly"... Few weeks ago, I felt so...and I want to do something so that I won't regret when I leave. Believe in God is good, but we just can't throw everything to our God when we are in trouble, we need to make our choice and go on our life. Time and your surroundings decide who are your friends, so don't worry too much, just don't close the door of your heart.

Fourth friend:
Itulah Nyawa.... Ini juga satu daripada jalan yang perlu dilalui bagi teenager.... Setiap orang perlu laluinya. Dunia ini, semua orang tentu ada suatu hari akan meninggal. Tidak berkecualian.

Fifth friend:
We leave is for our future. We may feel sad at the moment when we leave. But we feel more happy when we meet. Yes/No? Friendship cannot be eliminated by time, but with more appreciation.

说不出口的喜

你知道吗。。
当我知道你要进入另一个阶段时，我真的为你捏了一把冷汗。。
我好担心好担心你不能够担当一头家。
但是，我知道我现在只能给你完完全全的支持。。。
在你那么重要的日子，我却不能够和你分享你的喜悦，真是有点纳闷。
我很想在你痛苦，无奈时，在你身边，给你安慰，劝导。。。
我可以想象，你之前是受了多大的责备。。
但这一切，都要结束了。
你一定要答应我，往后的日子，遇到的挫折，一定要告诉我，不要放在心里。
不要再让我失去你的消息了～！
我真的很责备自己，因为我记得有一次，你打电话给我，我却在睡觉。。。
也许那时候的你，非常需要我～T.T
刚刚，你告诉我，是男的，我真的打从心里---笑了！
虽然你不是亲口告诉我。。但我真的，可以替你分享那段喜悦～
我从来没替别人那么开心，好象是自己有了那样。。。
可见你的地位在我心里是多么的不平凡。。:P
你一定要幸福哦。。。
我会永远祝福你的～！

Wala la..hmmm~~~

I thought I was just playing with my own mind but after some time, I start to realize that the truth isn't like what I think. I have been lying to myself all these while. Well, the truth can never remain silent. As time goes by, the truth will be revealed sooner or later. i can't avoid it anymore from now on. I have broke a seal which cannot be cured anymore. I really shouldn't make this mistake since the beginning of the story. Now it has became a long and dull story. I do admit that the beginning was great but as days and months gone by, both of us have started to feel bored. Maybe the way I used was wrong all this while. I didn't understand what happened. You are not used to be treated like this. I can feel the pressure for some weeks already. I know the balloon will eventually burst. And indeed it was like what I expected. I was so sad and down that particular night. My heart was weak as the pain was too hard to bear. The days gone by was really gloomy. I tried to cheer up but I just can't do so. I can't go back to basic anymore for the road I have chosen had make what I am today. I tried to forget but I failed. I tried all sorts of ways but I failed. I tried to cheat myself once again but I failed even harder time after time. Maybe I am too used to have your presence day by day. I can't lose you. You have left some pieces in my mind since some time ago. I like the song Dreaming Of You very much because it suits you a lot. I have been dreaming of you for the last two days. I can't stop thinking of you. You are just too good for me to lose. At last, I would like to dedicate this poem to you.

I took a fair road,
And having the better claim,
It was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

I shall be telling this with a sigh,
Somewhere ages and ages later:
The road shown in front of me-
I took the one I like,
And that has made all the difference.

Some People Is Just Like This

Sometimes some people just irritate me very much. I don't know why this people are always like this. They don't know how much trouble they brought to me. They never think of others. I have been disturbed over and over again but then, he is still my friend until now. Why does he have to make a fuss out of nothing? Why can't he just don't care about those things? He might be out of his mind of somehow he is just too lonely. I really hate a person like him. He might has no friends at all. He is somehow really bored of his life. I want to be a good friend but he doesn't want me to do so. What should I do then? He do things without thinking. I really can't take it anymore at some point in the conversation between me and him. I am very sad and angry because of him. I am not saying that he is not a good friend but why can't he be tolerate a bit by not being so "ke po" sometimes? Can't he care less a bit? He claims that no friends of his wanna share any secrets with him. What a good way of lying?? I really think that he is a pro cheater. No,no,no..is super pro la. We talk to him but what he does in the end is just by back-stabbing us back. He broke the friendship promise he made before hand. He goes around spreading news of others which have nothing to do with him. I hate it. This is not good. Why is his attitude like this? How can I go on staying in the same class with such a person? Let's just pray for God's help. I really don't know how to cure this matter. I have been not so well for these few weeks. One of the matter which bother me a lot is this. One thing for sure is he seems like he doesn't care for anything that he did. Who knows what more things that he has done behind all of us? I can do nothing about what is he going to do because he is him and I am myself. So,let's just leave it to God to do what should be done. That all,BB to the good old friend of mine.

为你们流泪了。。。。

为你心痛，甚至想到你此刻的心情，我流泪了。。。。

你的牵挂，你的忧虑，你那已僵硬和麻木的心，你铁定要离开了的心。。。。
没办法完全体会。。。。没办法完全了解。。。。
但有个肩膀可借你。。。。。有着时间陪着你。。。。。
加油吧！

为你心痛，也流泪了。。。。
你的付出换来的是那么大的伤害。。。。。
你的真心换来的是一颗铁石心肠的心。。。。
时间。。。时间会冲淡一切。。。。
相信我，时间会把全部的伤害擦掉的。。。。擦得干干净净的。。。。
忘掉吧！

La la la....some of my recent activities in school.. Lazy to write them out..so,just let some of my photos to share with u guys lo.. Haha..Jia you ba..

Time To Be A Pro

I won't be pressuring anyone anymore from now on..including me myself.. I don't want others to feel sad because of me. I want everyone to be as happy as possible. From this minute onwards,all the things done will be different from before. I am no longer the person who has an ego-thinking like before. Changes have been made every now and then because this is a must for us. We must think positively towards our way of life. No matter how hard life is,we still need to go through life. God gave us this precious life of us. Who knows what will happen tomorrow? Who can be a pro in just a few days time? Let's just think of this. Don't give up for everyone needs time to get used of something.